Just bored again

Somehow, the feel of the weather has caught onto me. I go mellow during monsoon. This is just the onset of the rains, and may pretty well be the curtaining too, considering it is Chennai (though I pray not). But today is dull dull dull. And has aroused some pretty strange feelings in me. I feel very… hmm… gloomy about life. Not mine, but of some others around me.

So many people lying around, taking shelter within makeshift tents on the roads. How can we pass by them, and not be struck by the way they cringe around each other trying to escape the holes in the fabric? So many kids playing in the slush… what promise of the future do they hold? What promise do any of us hold?

I came across some affecting news this month… A junior from school, who had succumbed to a brief illness due to delayed treatment. A unknown girl, at the other end of the country, who had taken her life, because her boyfriend ditched her. Is the value of a life going to be determined by others? Disturbing, but it happens.

I am upset with the world, my world as I see it. Something very harrowing has settled in. My mind seems possessed. Like I told a friend, I feel frustrated and foolish. 21 years of no big deal in a mundane melancholy life. 21 years of no major change in anything around me. 21 years of watching the world through gray and faded lens.

Hey someone, have something rose and tinted with you? Better if its a pair of glasses or lens. Would like to try them on.